Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me by Anna Mehler Paperny

See what I hunger for and with my truth has allowed me to create'.more Here I am, finally freeing myself to be vulnerable and terribly human. Here I am showing you the ferocity of my hunger.

But I am also saying, here is my heart, what's left of it. I understand if that truth is not something you want to hear. In writing this memoir of my body, and telling you these truths about my body, I am sharing my truth and mine alone. To face myself and what living in my body has been like has not been an easy thing, but I wrote this book because it felt necessary.

Too lay myself so vulnerable has not been an easy thing. 'Writing this book is the most difficult thing I've ever done. Roxane wrote this for herself, but it's a book i think everyone should read, regardless if you can relate to it or not and struggling with how you want to look versus how society wants you to look, and whether you deserve, or can even achieve, either. such a validating feeling to read about envying people with eating disorders, but at the same time knowing how wrong it is. this is so beautifully written and heartbreaking and tender and courageous. she did not have to publish this book, but she did and what a brave thing she did for us. this book!! what gift Roxane Gay is to the world and what a gift that this book came to be and is available for people to read. but in the end it was just too slow for me to keep me interested. this just wasn't for me! but i do see many positive reviews on this book and i do understand why. i do have a positive note! one thing i liked about this book was the concept of memory and how it can be manipulated and changed throughout time. the story was too messy and clunky for me and left me going, what the heck, but not in a good way. it didn’t make a ton of sense for me and there were also secondary characters that seemed to serve no purpose in the story in the end.

and when things did finally happen i felt like it was weird. it was all very vague and i had so many questions! i usually like unknown factors, but i was very annoyed by how little was revealed in each chapter and how painfully slow it took to get to the climax of the story. nothing is very clear throughout the book, especially at the beginning. too much plot that wasn't moving the story along and i was getting bored! wanted to put it down a handful of times. it took way to long to get exciting/grab my interest. too much plot that wasn't moving the story along and i was getting b so this was slow as heck.

Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me by Anna Mehler Paperny